Monday, May 31, 2010

You know that place between sleep and awake? That place where you still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you...

I'm a little sad today. I spoke to a good friend of mine, Justin for the first time in a long time. And he told me some amazing news, he and his bf are getting married! And he sat and was telling me all these plans and ideas and whatnot and he told me who he picked to be his bridesmaids and I was not one of them. See I never thought he was going to get married. He never seemed the type to me and has said to me in the past how he never really cared about it. I was just HOPING that maybe I would get to be a part of it. Now I know that he and I are not as close as we used to be so I really have no right to be upset and in reality I am being a whiny bitch but I'm a little sad that I won't be standing up there with him. Of course I thought what if the roles were reversed I probably wouldn't have him standing up there with me at my wedding. But only because I don't want a big wedding party. Really the only people I want standing with me are my sisters and Jaime's girls. Haha that's a ways away though. So this is kind of my blogs relaunch... no not incessant whining and complaining but me and my getting ready to begin the next stage of my life. Continue to juggle my long distance relationship, working; leaving home, moving in with my bf, and my newest obsession of knitting. Haha, my exciting life. I hope there's lots more fun stuff to come lol.